I’ve had many names in my life, and I’m not talking about nicknames or pet names or even name callings, although I’ve had many names from name callings as well. I’m talking about actual names, my birth name and my adopted name being some of them. It’s hard for me to associate myself with any one name in particular because my name change so much through my life. I don’t feel I identify myself by a name. Rather, I identify myself with my art creation and the name under my creations. I feel my art is define less as “art” and more as “creations” or a “created existence”, something that just comes into being without any solid representation, just a thought, a feeling, a fleeting glimpse of light and darkness intermingling, fighting each other for dominance.
I’m getting away from signing my whole name to my art and just initial them with “SDV”, which represents my most current name and the one that remained the longest in my life. If you follow me, you probably know what the “D” and the “V” stand for, which are my middle and last names. The “S” is the initial of my first name. Each letter of my initial actually represents a segment of my life I hold close and dear to my heart. Maybe I’ll write more about those moments at a later time.
There will be a shift in my art and how I represent myself. I’m trying to embrace who I am as a creator, trying to not feel like I fall short because I don’t think and create the same way most other artists create. I never felt like I belonged in any genre, whether fantasy, abstract, surreal, nature scenes, pop culture or even editorial. I feel like there should be a new category: Chaos or chaotic, maybe abstract chaos, surreal chaos. I’m just trying to tame my inner chaos.
The above image is titled “I Am Me” and represents how I create art. Read more about “I Am Me” in my previous blog here
